Just wondering if anyone who enjoys spanking videos ever gives any thought to the girls behind the video. Do they realize that we are real people with real lives and that we’ve sacrificed to do what we do? Do they assume we are drug addicts? Do they think we share their fetish? Would they be upset if their daughters did what we do?
I became a spanking model because it sounded fun and I’d enjoyed watching spanking videos forever. I wondered what it was like to be on the other side of the camera. And, it has been fun. I’ve met some “stars” and I’ve gotten to explore my kink and my fantasies in a way I probably couldn’t have done without the zoom lens and lights.I wouldn’t give up this experience for anything! Yet, I’ve given some things up too.
My privacy. I had a vanilla myspace account once upon a time. Then someone recognized me as Bailey and posted it to a spanking board. On that site were pictures of my parents and friends among other things. Did that person do wrong? I dunno. But I no longer use that account. I know that if I post a picture of myself in any vanilla context I risk being outed by insensitive spankos. Such is life right?
I’ve limited my job options. No, most things aren’t closed to me but do you think I can be a teacher or have a job in politics? I don’t mind this, but I do realize that some things are closed to me. The first female president can some day thank me for giving up my spot!
My parents know about what I do. Did I intend to tell them? Not so much. I won’t go into detail about the hows, but let me assure you that it has affected the way we view each other. Similarly, do you think I will ever have a lover who won’t know? Probably not. There is a certain amount of legacy here.
Don’t get me wrong. I’m happy to deal with these things. Every choice has consequences, after all. I just get sick of hearing how we are trashy or deserve what happens to us. When my personal space is violated and someone says,”You brought it on yourself” it makes me wonder.
Who do people really think we are?
I know who I am. I’m an intelligent young woman. I have a spanking fetish. I made a conscious choice to pursue my kink in spite of the potential consequences. Does that mean that you have a right to treat me as less of a person? I think not.