I’m very excited about this blog, because I’ve never had a real forum to discuss my thoughts and feelings around this kink of ours. I really want you readers to put in your input, so please don’t hesitate to comment and write to me if there is something you want to hear!

Most of what I have to say comes from my daily life. I am a very submissive girl, and have plenty of spanking related material to write about from day to day. However, because this is my first post I thought people might enjoy knowing a bit about my history as a spanko. I’ve had a spanking fetish for as long as I can remember. Even as a very small child I knew that the way I felt about spanking was different from my peers. I was not spanked as a child, and I think this is a good thing because it would have caused me a lot of conflicted feelings, I think. Occasionally my parents would threaten, and I always wondered what it would be like if they did actually spank me. This resulted in many long evenings of wondering.

Although I was not spanked myself, I grew up in a rather conservative area and most all of my friends were. Any time I found out someone had been spanked I was quick to ask questions about it and try to get all the details. I’m not sure what my friends thought of this. Some of them were definitely uncomfortable talking about it and thought I was a bit odd for asking. Others seemed to think it was no big deal and had no problem sharing their details at all. I don’t think any of them suspected that I was interested for any reason other than concern.

Very occasionally I got to hear a friend get spanked. Sometimes I caused it, as with the neighbor boy who I didn’t like. His mother spanked him with a wooden spoon that they called “the spanking spoon”. I can remember clearly at least one instance where I made up an offense against me and went and told his mother. She didn’t believe his protests, and he got spanked for it. At the time it was very thrilling, but nowadays I still hold some guilt over that incident. I’m glad I understand my feelings better as an adult and don’t need to resort to those types of tactics in order to have an outlet.

As soon as I was old enough to pursue it ethically, I sought out like minded people. This is how I ended up with the people in my life who spank me privately. It is also how I became a spanking model. I was lucky to grow up in the age of the internet, and I was able to understand and come to terms with my own kinks early on rather than spending years struggling with why I was different. Today I am very happy, and I hope you enjoy sharing my experiences with me!